uncertainty

7:15 am
Looking at those few pairs of high heels I recently bought and have had no chances to put on yet, how pretty and delicate they are, I wonder when I can walk in heels again. Will it be nine months later? How fat and heavy will I be by the time? My period is 3 days late. Perhaps tonight I am gonna find out the answer.


10:00 pm
Extremely worried about money. We didn't expect the stamp duty would cost us extra 150 thousand dollars. Dad is gonna help us out first. When I was back home, looking at our empty bank account on the computer, felt so scared as well as so uncertain about the future. Adrian reassured that we would be okay. Actually I know and I believe we can handle it. I could not explain why my emotions fluctuated so much.

By the way my period is here. I'm so not pregnant. But then I also feel a bit disappointed. Well, I am NOT pregnant ...